Friday, July 17, 2009

Day 1...

As I sit here staring out the window, All I see is green...I feel a cool breeze, for it has just rained, which is a nice change from the everyday heat. I look down at my baby Lexi, who is getting so big! Almost 4 months old already....i just had her yesterday. (it seems) She looks up at me and has the cutest smile, making everything that's wrong disappear. How can someone so little, make such a big impact on my life....After looking in on Lidiya, who's taking her nap, she looks so calm, so peaceful so at ease....Then I take a look at the world and its such a complicated place to live in. Ive lived a rough life, contrary to belief, my life is not nor has it been a walk in the park. Ive had my ups, Ive had my downs, do I want pity..no, I don't want anyone to pity me, EVER....I just hope that I can make my daughters life fun and a little easier than mine has been, and I want to protect them from some of the bad in the world. I've learned that "letting it all go" sometimes, helps me feel better. Its just day 1...of this new blog journey for me, so we wont get into everything today...maybe little by little....and advice and comments from friends, family, and who ever cares to read this can be helpful I'm sure! On the positive, only 369 days till our wedding! YAY!

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